So here's the thing. A friend of mine, he seems like a brother to me. I've been worrying over his health. He's working, and I think he's overworked himself. He doesn't really pay attention to his meals, and I've been wondering whether he starts smoking again or not (although he promised me that he wouldn't smoke anymore). He gets really busy, and I have my uni stuff to deal with too that we rarely talk as much as we used to on MSN anymore.
Then there's another friend of mine. He's, oh well, let's just said, fucked up. Won't give you detail, but I really feel sorry for him. In the same time I've been in his girl's position, but I can't hate him because he's my bestfriend, no matter how fucked up he is. He didn't sound so good when we talked on MSN, and I couldn't get myself to say something smart either. I really wish I could say something brilliant to make him feel better, but apparently I couldn't. Because really. When I was so down from my break up (which was kind of long ago), he was the one that knocked some sense to me.
And my lovely bestfriend, one of very FEW close girl friends I have. She was sick the last time I contacted her, and it was bothering her because she has exam coming. And I haven't heard from her for awhile now, and it's really bothering me. I've messaged her, but I guess she's definitely not awake at this hour simply because she's like 11 hours ahead of my time zone.
Another girl friend of mine seems to be really stressed out with her P.Hd program. She's rarely online and she seems to be missing everything she had when she was in her undergraduate years. A gay friend of mine, seems to be missing and it makes me feel guilty each time I remember him because I realise that I don't really make the effort to contact him although we are only 20 mins away from each other.
At times like this, I really wish I can use my cooking skill into a good use and cook for him just to make sure he eats properly. Or give him a hug and tell him that what's done is done and it's the consequence of what he did, and that at least it was the right thing to do. And maybe being the one that take care of her food when she's sick and helps her to study so she's prepared for exam. Or maybe having the courage to call all the way there just to make sure that she doesn't feel lonely and that she's managing her new life as a GTA. And probably, I should start agreeing with him to go to the gay bars with him just for the sake of him having fun once in a while.
I wish I can do a little bit more because as for now, all I have is my family and them. How much I wish I can do more than just talking to them on MSN or Skype. I hate distance.
