JC said I should stop being passive and start making my move. I thought it was possible, but really when I got basically no respon from whatever I do, I literally just gave up. Please someone remind me again why I'm stuck in this stupid situation?!
It's like I'm being worried about something that is not even confirmed yet. Or I'm being paranoid over something that I know might not even there. Not only that, those little hopes that keep on popping out each time are killing me. Please.. stop.
I'm not the type of person that actually really care about something like this, but I always end up brust when my heart cannot take it already. I actually cried, just like that. I woke up just like any other day, and I just started crying. I didn't know why, but I just did. I was supposed to be driving that day, but thank god Pris was being a great best friend like she had always been and decided to drive my car to Cinileasure that day.
Seriously, it really does come to the point where I feel like such a loser. I really do not understand why. But I want to show my affection, and I believe I do. Yet it seems like it fails. Even until now honestly. When I thought it's finally over (because JC told me that I wouldn't have to be bothered about it after exam ended), things turned out to be different. Unexpected, and it reminds me of how I feel.
Stop.. please.
That was so heart felt but it's great thing your sharing your feelings and thoughts with the world. Most people bottle it up and hide it but you give it to us on your site because most people feel like that. I rap and I make a song and I am so excited about it thinking that this is the best song ever and I let someone hear it and don't get the response I thought I was going to get. So sometimes I want to give up literally. But we have to stay strong; and continue to cry when you have to. Hope you have a good day. - Joshua
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