Not Logical

I thought I would definitely feel so happy when it happened, but I didn't. There is something in human's feeling that is really hard to understand. The part where you heart just never goes according to logic. I've lost contact with someone for quite sometimes. Usually we always talked to each other every single day and had fun doing so.

I'm not sure about her, but when we finally contact each other again, I just ran out of topics. Logically speaking, I would have about tons of stuff to talk about because I haven't talked to her for the past few weeks. Yet, I couldn't even say anything interesting. Not even the fact that, let say, I'm worried over my result that is coming out tomorrow.

It seemed that there is this distance between the two of us that make us unable to communicate like we use to. Ehm.. Not logical, really. Especially considered how close the two of us are.

Yet again, there is a possibility of me being mad at her quite some times ago. Maybe, I feel reluctant to share all the happiness and sadness that I had encountered for the past few weeks. That is just a maybe. And yet maybe, I just need my time.

To be honest, it takes quite sometimes for me to forgive someone. I take grudge easily, and it is quite difficult for me to forget. It may not seem as if I'm mad or agree at someone, but if you are pretty close to me, it would be obvious because I tend to talk less at time like this.

And illogically, I would easily forgive someone if he/she directly said sorry and started to act as if nothing happened.

Probably this is exactly what happened between me and her. No one did anything wrong, it was just me being mad at her a few weeks ago, for reason that I must admit was quite selfish. It seems that because she is also acting a little awkward talking to me that I found it really hard to have a conversation.

And yes, probably I just need to take my time.

By the way, result is coming out tomorrow. *dies*