i'm not sure honey..

There are so much I want to tell you about. About my life, about people around me, about how I've been doing. But it seems so hard each time. You just don't let me to. From the way you write, from the fact that you share with me, you just don't give me the space to say something about how I've been doing.

I know it has been hard on you with all that, but I feel left out. I'm trying my best to be supportive, but it has come to the point where I don't even know what else to say or where we are standing right now. I'm an extrovert, everyone knows that. This is the very first time in my life that I can't even say a thing about my self. Not because I do not want to, but my tongue just ties it self and refuses to say anything. I feel reluctant to say anything.

Just because my stupid unconscious mind keeps on telling me, "It's not worth it to tell you anything, because you don't even bother to find out about how I've been doing. Or just to tell me that at least you are still alive."

I'm not sure honey. I'm not sure how long I can last.