weird

it is really weird really.. to find out that i can work best under pressure and with my room in such a mess.. during the whole semester, i've been trying my best to actually keep my room clean.. but the thing is.. instead of studying or concetrate on my assignment, i'll be having too much fun browsing the internet or playing around with photoshop or writing some updates for my fictions..

surprisingly, since early of this month, my room is in such a mess that i even do not have any word to describe how horrible its condition is.. even more to my surprise, i managed to finish my IBS in such condition and started my AMC..

ignoring the desk, i've been doing the assignment on my bed.. weird, really.. my bed is full of lecture notes and journals that i've printed out.. at times like this, i'm glad i borrowed my sister lappy's cooler that now i can use my lappy as long as i want in my bed..

i still have IBS bibliography to do, and 2500 more words to write for AMC.. and guess wat.. i need to see my lecturer tomorrow to check my AMC assignment.. i think i'm gonna stay up late again today.. hahaha..

i need my time

i js do not want to talk to anyone right now.. just go away..
just leave me alone..
i don't wanna feel anything..
i'm sick of all this..

js.. let me be for awhile..

js something i've been wondering..

not noticing..
not looking for..
not worrying when no news were said..
not sparing some of the time when busy..
not sharing the hardship..
not even sharing the happiness..
not asking any question..
not giving sacrifices..
not making it sounds special in someway..
not doing the first initiative..
not caring about the where about..

i wonder..

how people can live with this..