my hol up to this point

i've been somehow busy.. i have tution, stupid freaking japanese language; i've stopped going for golf driving range lesson, but instead being dragged to golf course session, which is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy tiring; and i've been busy on biodiesel research for my short internship..

i was supposed to have my test like last week, but sadly i got typhoid.. it was then postponed to last friday.. but then again, i was like soooooooo lazy dat somehow i managed to make my teacher to change it to yesterday.. and guess wat?? my teacher messaged me 8am in the morning, telling me that she got diarrhea and because of that the freaking japanese test is postponed again to today..

well, let's js forgot about it and move on..noichi sent me a copy of HSJ concert file because i was just too lazy to download it, and it js arrived today.. and so i watched it 4 hours nonstop today.. hahaha.. she wrote a letter, with just pure spamming inside.. and she asked me why i havent talked about golf at all lately..

it's because i stopped comming for driving range lesson.. and yes, as i said before, i've been dragged to golf course session.. which is so tiring and totally wearing me out.. so i rather not talk about it..

btw, i'm going to jakarta this coming 7th august.. will be there until 14th or even more.. i cant wait to meet Henny, that i havent met for like three years now!! and maybe if possible pam and noichi.. also, if i have enough time i'll be meeting some of my uni friends (which is not really necessary since i'll be seeing them again this Autumn Semester..

speaking of uni.. seriously i'm abit nervous being on my final year.. i think i need to be a complete nerd once autumn semester starts.. which i dont really want to do because that means less time fangirling.. i dont really want to come back to uni because i will have to study extra this year.. but in the same time i missssss my friends!!

there's no life in this post and i'm soooooooooo sorry..

seriously.. it takes me three years to say this..

it's been ages since i met them and it's been ages since i talked to them.. for the past four days, somehow i've been in touch with some of my friends.. as in finally, i'm in touch wit them.. i think i really miss them.. i'm not good at saying i miss u.. and i'm not good at saying how much i wish we can meet up and have a good time like the old days..

i miss this one friend of mine, who had been the greatest among all.. i must say, without her, i wouldnt be as mature as i am right now.. henny.. if u read this, i just want u to know how much i actually think that i'm blessed that i met u.. it was ashame that we cant meet when u were in medan, and honey, i'm sorry i cant guarantee whether i can go to jakarta or not this august.. but i think there will be a good news ahead.. i just cant tell u yet wat it is.. maybe i have to wait a little longer for confirmation..

hen, thanks alot for all the stupid talk we had dear.. each time the word highschool came to my mind, all i can remember is you.. honestly, it's only you dear.. the rest come later on.. when i'm all alone in my room, i can suddenly feel how lonely it is without you bragging inside my room, just simply blurted out for a food without really cared what i was doing..

i guess people are right dear.. u dont know what u have until u lost it.. when u called me, i had nothing to say.. i didnt know wat to say.. i was being so fucking nervous.. i felt so guilty that i didnt really do my best to meet you.. it takes me almost 3 years to say this but hen, i really miss you.. every little stupid chat we have on msn, although it doesnt happen quite often, always made me relief.. i feel as if, thank god she still think of me as a friend..

maybe i really should go and buy a new microphone, so i can sing KKEB for you anytime on msn again, dear.. i just want to say all that i'm blessed with the two years i had wit you in highschool.. two years as classmates and two years as housemates.. u might not know it, but u did alot.. u inspired me alot.. and although u were just usually trying to find me when u had problems (or when u were hungry!!), it gave more than enough to remember how good friendship can be..

i know.. i'm being so random right now.. but i kind of just have to say this..

it's weird i guess..

i've been wondering since ages, am i really what i think i am?? since i was in my highschool time.. i have this problem of liking him and her.. yeah.. and her.. i liked a girl before.. and it was frustrating.. i dunnoe.. it was js frustrating.. and it happened about twice.. i liked both girl and guys..

then that's it.. after i entered my matriculation year, liking a girl never occurred to my head anymore.. not even once.. even until now.. i'm perfectly normal and perfectly straight.. not even once girls really attract my intention anymore.. thank god.. i'm so glad about it..

now my question is.. do u actually believe what i just said?? ROFL..