seriously.. it takes me three years to say this..

it's been ages since i met them and it's been ages since i talked to them.. for the past four days, somehow i've been in touch with some of my friends.. as in finally, i'm in touch wit them.. i think i really miss them.. i'm not good at saying i miss u.. and i'm not good at saying how much i wish we can meet up and have a good time like the old days..

i miss this one friend of mine, who had been the greatest among all.. i must say, without her, i wouldnt be as mature as i am right now.. henny.. if u read this, i just want u to know how much i actually think that i'm blessed that i met u.. it was ashame that we cant meet when u were in medan, and honey, i'm sorry i cant guarantee whether i can go to jakarta or not this august.. but i think there will be a good news ahead.. i just cant tell u yet wat it is.. maybe i have to wait a little longer for confirmation..

hen, thanks alot for all the stupid talk we had dear.. each time the word highschool came to my mind, all i can remember is you.. honestly, it's only you dear.. the rest come later on.. when i'm all alone in my room, i can suddenly feel how lonely it is without you bragging inside my room, just simply blurted out for a food without really cared what i was doing..

i guess people are right dear.. u dont know what u have until u lost it.. when u called me, i had nothing to say.. i didnt know wat to say.. i was being so fucking nervous.. i felt so guilty that i didnt really do my best to meet you.. it takes me almost 3 years to say this but hen, i really miss you.. every little stupid chat we have on msn, although it doesnt happen quite often, always made me relief.. i feel as if, thank god she still think of me as a friend..

maybe i really should go and buy a new microphone, so i can sing KKEB for you anytime on msn again, dear.. i just want to say all that i'm blessed with the two years i had wit you in highschool.. two years as classmates and two years as housemates.. u might not know it, but u did alot.. u inspired me alot.. and although u were just usually trying to find me when u had problems (or when u were hungry!!), it gave more than enough to remember how good friendship can be..

i know.. i'm being so random right now.. but i kind of just have to say this..