feel inspired

i was planning on writting down my stupid back pain that caused me lots of trouble, or maybe the stupid journey i had today on my way back from KLIA, sending off my mom and aunty.. or maybe what i had been doing for the past few days.. but i somehow feel so inspired..

after watching KAT-TUN appearance in UTABAN back in 2006 and KAT-TUNx3 episode 2, i feel freaking inspired.. then, i feel more inspired after watching Hanayome to Papa episode 4, starring Taguchi Junnosuke [KAT-TUN's member].. i realised that i've been lying to myself by keep saying "Daijobu, Kiki!!" all the time.. i keep excusing myself from my own weaknesses and i've been trying to ignore the fact that i need to do something about it..

i never thought that i will end up getting inspired just by watching those episodes.. i realise that are a lots of beautiful things that exist, but i never able to experience it because i refuse to admitting my own flawness..

there is only one way to fix all these.. instead of keep saying "daijobu".. i think i should start to say "gabaru" and move on.. maybe, by doing something will eventually makes me at least a little closer to those beautiful things.. just a little closer will do.. as simple as it means, it's less further.. and more chance to grab it..

"GAMBARE ONEGAISIMASU!!"