so-called-friendship

the following story is based on true story and yet the name of the characters are not real.. respect is still needed in this situation..

Izumi was still not sure why she felt abit ackward to Nanase lately.. it was as if Nanase tried to leave her behind as her friend, when Izumi thought that Nanase was the kind of friend she's been looking for.. on the other hand, her uncomfortableness around Yuu was getting better.. kept some distance between each other had evantually made her relationship with Yuu to somehow back to how it used to..

Izumi really did not know what to say anymore.. the fact that Nanase preferred to be with some other group of people and always left her behind was really made her feel really down.. fortunately, in the same time, Izumi realised how much she had actually left behind her own friends.. the night she went out with Taichi, Mizuki, Hachi, and Ayame after so long never went out together had really made her realised how much she loves being around them.. no need to be loud or lively.. there is no need to be cool, pretty, or fashionable.. just being there as who she is.. she, again, realised how much she had missed them..

Ai and Masahiro have been two of her closest friends, but the two of them were somewhere far at the moment, where she couldnt lean on them any more.. she was abit stressed out that there wouldn't be anymore Ai at the moment to comfort her each time she feels down.. there wouldn't be anymore Masahiro at the moment that could act as her own big brother..

she realised how true the phrase "u do not know wat u have untill u lost them" is.. in her case, she had not lost it yet.. she was given the second chance to be with those who care about her.. her comrades in pain and laugh.. friends dat accepting her for whoever she is..

gank-ing up is something that Izumi never understood since the day she went to school.. she believed that friendship never exist in gank-ing up.. being there physically never meant anything for her.. Izumi always believe dat having her/his heart, respect, and trust is always the most important thing..

Ashiya once told her when they were together that being together do not mean dat they have to go everywhere together.. he said, as long as he had her heart and trust, nothing else matter.. well, although the relationship ended after almost 3 years together, those words that Ashiya believed in, were still stick in Izumi heart..

Izumi just couldn't understand how come Nanase, someone dat she believed at least would be able to be her comrade suddenly changed.. she changed alot that Izumi no longer understood her.. nor she understood Nanase's new friends.. she tried her best, but she just seemed not able to understand this bunch of people.. she just seemed not able to blend in with them, and she had enough of trying.. even Jin that never actually said anything serious, said something is seriously weird about them.. as if there are only having fun, famous, and status in their head.. well, Izumi never actually thought that way.. but at some point she had to be agreed with Jin..

Yuu and Rei felt the same way as Jin and Izumi.. having some other people that agreed with her actually had made Izumi a little bit confused.. was it her to blame?? or Nanase to blame?? or them to blame?? Izumi now could only wished that things could be back just like it used to be.. although, honestly, she was abit excited to had this "general meeting" wit Yuu, Rei, and Jin [as the topic leader, hahaha..] some time in the future..

because somehow, inside, Izumi felt betrayed.. betrayed by something so-called-friendship..